PARENTS

Parents- biologically they give birth to us…so we owe them our life, if not for them we wouldn’t have been here….
The pain a mother goes thru in giving birth to a child, and the happiness when she holds her baby sieved from her own blood is undescribable. The path and sacrifices a father makes to make sure that his child gets all what he desires for , to make sure he is getting all the comforts of life is unexplainable.

The sleepless nights when the children are sick , the fear of them getting hurt when they first start to walk , the tears of joy when they say their first word, the satisfaction to see them sleep in calm….parents….they go through a lot….

And then we grow up….oh now, the situation gets interesting…
We go to school and the parents see to it that we have everything.. a new bag, a new tiffin box, pencil box, new stationary, uniform, books ….and we are so ready to show off our new stuff to our friends…
And when u come back from school the parents are eagerly waiting to know how was your first day … and you come home with a sulky face…why? Coz ur friend has a better bag than you, someone else has a fancier pencil/pen…… and then the smiles which should have been brought on our parents face just fades away…and they feel tht they have let us down..they haven’t fulfilled our dreams…
Not fair…
The same thing happens when u go to ur next grade, ur prom parties…..
They do everything they can…and instead of us thanking them , we always let them down by complaining on wht they haven’t done….
But they never give up on trying to do things beter…

And then enters a brand new phase…adolosence…
Wow..thats the rebellious one…
Mom says…”have ur glass of milk”…and we shout back….”maa..please leave me alone”….dad says..”why are you so late coming back home” and we are like “paa..im grown up, I need some independence….” Mom says…”I think the neckline is too low” and we scream like “ cant I even wear what I feel like…. God this is like a prison”
Remember those days….
Ur first crush, ur first kiss…and those romantic times u wanted to get lost in ..and ur parents were the villains…always ….our concept….”they never understand me yaar…it’s the generation gap…they are so narrow minded….they have a prob with everything I do, the food I eat, the dress I wear, the music I hear, the people I talk to ..i cant take this anymore yaar… I just hate them”

That’s enough….we hate them….truly they don’t deserve that….

When I was a kid…I was treated like a princess my parents.. I always thought of sth , and I always got it..sometimes I had to ask for it.. but most of the times, without asking only …and I don’t know why… I was never scared of them… I always thought of them as my friends…so I could say anything and everything to them….

Especially with my mom….she was my best friend…if I was sad , she wld know and viceversa…. And I always used to say , I would want to be like her when I grow up…

And everyone who don’t know me might think that I had a very good family life… so for those readers, I would want to say …that life was good… but not without comlplications… and a lot of them…some scenarios which you guys cant even imagine…
But there was something which always held us together…our family bond….

And then once, I asked my parents for something which I loved so much….and then for the first time they said “No”….and I believed and trusted my parents thoughts more than mine….so I didn’t chase wht I was after….
I was never upset with my parents….never questioned why they said NO to me..always thought they knew better….
I always had it in my heart that I should always be there for them… its my duty, my responsibility and my love for them….
And I have lived up to it all these days…. Never told them anything which will make them feel tht they have not been there for me…or bring tears to them coz of me… I have taken each and every of their problem as mine own…and did everything wht I could from my end…
And there was one day when my mom told me “im so proud of you my daughter…there was a time when I thought I would never now u as a person and today u have proved to be everything tht we ever wanted”
And I will never forget tht day…
So the sacrifices I made never looked as significant to wht my parents mean to me…

Then after all these years… I asked them something again…I cried and pleaded to them…I made them understand what and how and why it is …
But they again said “NO”…
And I was so mad at them…I felt they never understood me…its their life they were bothered about…not mine…when I had a problem, they didn’t bother standing by me..not even understanding me..
I was so cross at them and didn’t bother even talking to them ….i felt in my heart tht whtever I did was of no use… coz they couldn’t once think of something by stepping into my shoes…..
They said tht they cared for my happiness but cant agree to wht I say…ok…that is weird..how can that be…if they cared , if they wanted my happiness…they should have stood by me…but they didn’t…
So why should I love them back so much….
Crazy thoughts…all the time in the head…

Sometimes we are ready to die for the ones we love…but look at me ….im nto even ready to forgive my parents who love me so much and who gave birth to me…
If I have always wanted to live for them, what has changed now…i have lost something which perhaps i will never be able to get back ...but that is my problem right...

I wanted to tell my parents that im sorry…..to have thought so …to have been mad at them for so long…I still don’t agree to what they said…. But keep aside my pain and sorrows…I want to forgive them and keep no grudges…
Its been heavy on my heart for so long now… but when you forgive someone, it becomes easier in life…
My parents still mean the world to me… and I have no right to be upset on them…and im sorry to have caused hurt and pain to anyone to whom I couldn’t do justice coz I m my parents daughter…
A lot has changed…a lot need to be changed…
As a fresh step into a new life….i want to start it with the blessings of my parents…

I love you dad and mom….!!!!